Wednesday, September 19, 2007

I wanna Have babies

I wanna have babies. I have been getting these sharp tugs somewhere near my heart every time I see a baby, or a kitten or a puppy. There are several small babies in my building and often while leaving for work or coming back from work I come across one or the other in the elevator. The way they look at you, trying to drink you in wholly, eyes wide and sharp; the way they smile mildly when you smile at them and the way they giggle if you try to play peek-a-boo with them.

At work when colleagues discuss their children and how all their weariness is taken away from them by just one glimpse of their children in the evening, I feel those pangs. I am dying to hold a baby. None of my close friends have had babies though some are planning for one this year. My younger brother is getting married in November this year, but they are still too young to have a baby.

My partner & I have discussed surrogate mothers and other such options available to us same sex partners. But we are waiting to reach a station in our lives. My immigration to Canada, my partner's career stability, my career in Canada - there are so many uncertainties in our lives, its just not the right environment or time for having a baby. But, how do I deal with my heart.

I wanna have babies.


Blogger dgboiler said...

You're not alone. Many gay couples and singles want kids. I personally prefer adoption. I don't think I would need to be biologically related to my kid to feel connected to it. A lot of my friends were adopted and were aware of it from day one as the parents made no secret about it. I think it works out better that way.

6:12 AM, September 23, 2007  
Anonymous closetalk said...

o gosh. everyone wants to move to canada!!!!

6:46 AM, October 02, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yes you are not the only one. I've been wanting to have a baby so much for the past sometime...and I have these weird thoughts - why did women need a guy to have a baby. Why couldn't I just have a baby on my own, without having to depend on some guy for that! I know I am going crazy!

3:20 AM, July 31, 2008  

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